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我開始發現，最近的自己比較容易陷入壓力當中。
或許是周圍發生了太多事情了，現在的我面對未來的看法開始覺得模糊了。

有時候真的覺得在一個家庭裏，大家都想要開開心心的過日子。
但是往往大家在開心的當兒就會因爲一些芝麻綠豆瑣碎的小事情而吵架。
不是我不理解您想要有所表達的。
使我無法接受你一次又一次對着我嘶哄的那種感覺。
極度的厭噁大男人主義的男士們。

或許是因爲家庭的關係，最近的我都容易疲倦。
晚上的時候都比較難入眠。
好想回去那一種溫馨又無憂無慮的日子。

這樣難道就是要求得太多嗎？
能了解我内心的人有幾個？
就像一些人所說得我的忍量度視聽寬的。
但是到了一定的限度也是會啓發它的引擎而開始爆發。
算了，反正人生才短短的幾十年過得充實和滿足纔是我現在的第一宗旨。
開開心心的，那才是我。 =)

today's project meet up was the best
we completed all compiling of replies and stuffs in just 2-3 hrs
and the remaining time we did was to lunch at design and went to lib to watch movie
Princess Diary 2 was freaking funny.
laugh till the library ranger asked us to keep our laughter down.
totally funny and entertaining movie.

Happy 18th! =)

i love the advice that you give
the things u told me were so true
and i ought to think about it

love you boy

I've finally ended my 16 weeks of SIP.
Although this 16 weeks did make me feel very stress, but i am glad that i really do learn alot.
Most importantly, i enjoyed the process.
Photo taking on Friday and Saturday was fun.
Still have quite alot of pictures with my collegues so will post it more at my facebook once i received it.

And now! Its finally a holiday for us!
Gonna give myself a really good rest and break.
Spending more time with my family.
Going out with the A4ers.
My promise to LSY as parttime bf. LOL!

Not forgetting spending time with the boy that really took good care of me. =)
Flu flu go away. Dear must drink your all time fav Sunkist Orange juice ya. hehes.

Okie. I think i did not drink my coffee this morning, thus i am having bad headache now. =(
Afternoon nap is really shiok.
And now i have time i will take more of that.

Of to watch drama alr.
Miss the boy so much. Love you.
& of course, do take care.

just a random post. hahas!

Was feeling rather tired and stress lately due to work.
But i know there's always someone there for me.
The boy who can make me smile and laugh.
A blog post at a random timing makes me happy.



The content shall not be revealed.
But i am so angry with myself today as i did a rather silly thing.
Yes its stable like you said.
Thanks for being understanding.
Thanks for being there always.
Thanks for hearing me rant.

You're great. =)

48 minutes more to go before i end my work on a boring friday.
Ohwell. I really have nothing much to talk about lately.

Just completed a report.
Collating of results is totally killing me the first 3 days.
But i guess i am a weird person yeah. i lvoe analyzing the results. LOL!
I started the actual report on Wednesday afternoon and ended like 15 minutes ago.
Now i am only left with abstract and content page to do.
Gonna leave it till tmr if not i will have nothing to do already.

i love the new shirt i bought at PUNKSTAR with ms lim sy.
she totally like psycho-ing me to buy more new clothes.
and well done ms lim, you had successfully psycho-ed me. tsk
and i totally love the watever colour (peach red? pinkish red?).
i guess only sy knows what colours is that. and yes Ken too. =)

time passed so fast lately.
i didnt know today is friday till hedy told me.
hahas good.

sunday is gonna be another day i am so so looking forward to.
going jogging to meet the criteria for the amount of physical acitvity i should had. (i guess too much report writing).
and the best thing is Ken is accompanying me to run. LOL.
okie not funny. but that really sweet of me. (part of the reason is that he really need to go on diet. Oops)

okie off to do packing and wear my mask before i go out.
totally hate wearing mask but...safety precaution.

guess i will update again quite sometime later?
so meanwhile take care peeps!

Oh man! I really feel satisfaction after completing a report all on my own!
Retrieving all the case notes from MRO.
Noting down all the data.
Analysing the data.
It was really a torture for me.
BUT! i still do enjoy the process.
With the help of several people like my dearest Sup Nehal, Angela, Hedy, Joyce, Nana, Stephanie, Amanda and Jocelyn.
Without them, i would not be able to retrieve the case notes successfully.
For all your info, case notes are not that easy to be taken as patients may go to diff clinic and their details may be left at there! LOL!
HAHA! and best part is i complete it within 2 days. LOL!
But Nehal haven read it yet, hopefully its up to her standard. =)










Some late photos that i haven update! =D

i guess i will need to visit the orthopaedic soon.
the pain is coming back.
unbearable pain aching in the middle of the nights.
haven been sleeping peacefully or soundly.

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ANYWAY!
i have a sudden craving for mee hoon kueh.
boy, let's eat later yea =)

I had a really special 20th birthday this year.
Its both sad and happy.

I shall say the sad thing is that i have reach the number '2'!
OMG! Last year if give me 20 bucks still can return 1 buck lo.
Now no more liaos! Argh. But its ok. As long as i still looks young! Muahahas!

 - 4th june -

The 7 peeps gang gave me a very very big surprise.
Actually me and my food safety group members were supposed to have an online meeting at 830pm.
But when i online at 815 i just saw only Mr Lau ZH.
He acted really funny throughout the whole conversation where by he keep typing all sorts of smilies.
Then SY came to sms me saying that she will be late as she's on bus. (I believed her totally man.)
And my leader Ms Ng LH was telling me that she had connection problem. (Again, i believed her cause she always met this problem.)
Wait till around 845, suddenly someone press my door bell.
Tadang! The 7 people was standing at my doorstep holding a black forest cake from polar and singing along the birthday song.
Totally was 0.o hahas!
Really need to thanks the 7 peeps - SY, Kiki, Lihui, Gerald, Manhong, Janson and Yiming.
Not to forget those OSIP-ers who are in China at the moment - ZH & vivien.



The first group photo - was a little blur in fact. Taken by my dad!



The second group photo! Notice the lappie... Theres Zh and vivien in it! =D



Argh. The very unglam me with the organiser of this birthday surprise. LOL!
I do look like a traffic light eh. Just that i lack of the colour green! ROFL.



All the TW food my dad gave them.
Sorry peeps cause too sudden and last minute.



The POLAR Black Forest cake. =D





This is still ok as it's normal.



The end product of what lim shi yi had done to me. LOL!



This is totally unglam to the max.! =O

Thank you to all! =D

Will upload the 2nd set of pics when i got it from Mr Sim and my sis. =D

I love the peeps who gave me that surprise!

i have the sudden crave for mensa 2 dory fish special.
omg. also the creamy mushroom soup. LOL!

I am really touched by this gang.
It consists of shiyi, kiki, gerald, lihui, manhong, janson, yiming, vivien and zhenghong.

I will update more in details when i have all the pictures.
SO a picture preview!

it feels so good to rest on your shoulder after a long day at work.
thanks so much.
thanks for making the effort to come down.
i really do need it when i'm feeling low.
glad that you are always there for me.

ily

some things if you wanna do it, you can. if not its pointless..
instead of asking why cant you do it.
No point anymore.
I will not ask again too.
Its totally no use.

My dear is feeling unwell today.
As i forced him to eat too much i guess. =(
So sorry love. I should not have bought the crispy chicken.

I want you to rest well ok?
I can see that you are really very tired these days.
Due to the tons of SIP and MP stuffs u need to do.
But remember that your rynryn is always there for you.
I know i may be a little fierce to you at times and also a little stubborn.
But i'm really glad that you understand it and forgive me with all the stupid nonsense.

I love you dear.
Please get well soon.

I'm missing you so much. =(

Yeah as everyone know, Swine flu is like the lastest thing in the world.
The virus from the pig to human is really contagious. And the spreading are so fast that we can't even imagine.
So, working in hospital is quite dangerous like most of my relatives and friends had said.
But i will take good care of myself yea =)

Got my mask today. And wore it the whole day.
Seriously i feel that i'm suffocating after wearing it for the whole day.
No air at all. But this is an experience for me.
Is like i'm in the SARS period kind of thing.

Last week was in the kitchen.
Had tons of fun in there.
Know more stuffs about catering and also about some XXXXXX stuffs.
Wendy was a nice manager in the kitchen. She really take good care of me.
I saw her today and i was like I MISS YOU WENDY!
She is also a former TP student.
Ebby, the funny partner of mine when i'm in kitchen.
Lily, the mama of the kitchen who really treat me as her daughter as she always call me 女兒。
Siew Kim, the really ang mo aunty who speak damn slang english
Sidik, the senior sup who teach me a lot on ward serving.
Kiran, the Nepal sup who speaks in a real funny way.

Some pics to load before i finish my post.











I really miss you my love.
Wondering how are you doing this few days.
I miss the days you fetch me home from work. (But not now due to the Swine Flu)
I miss everything of you. Do take good care of yourself all right.
ily. =D

I have been looking at Taiwan News since Sunday. A title that attract me to watch: [搶救煮嬰毉落淚，僅10%機會].
The father is so heartless totally.. The baby girl is just only 10 months old and yet he threw her into a big pot of boiling water.
How can a blood related father do this. How did he even have the courage to throw his own daughter into the boiling water.
The baby girl strive for 4 days. And officially announced dead today at 10.05am. =(
A 10 month old baby didnt even get to see the world yet. Just started to talk. And now it gone just like that.
I hope the father will be sentenced severly for his actions.
I'm really angry. I still don't get it why can't he be consious and LOOK it's his daughter!
He threw her into the boiling water due to his drunk, and the 10mth old baby girl got more than 84% of her body scald.
I can imagine how hurtful it is.
Even for us, when we got accidentally scald by a bit of boil water we will be shouting here and there.
What's more its a BABY!!!!
Aish... Just wanna say...

Rest in Peace 黃小妹妹.
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從事麵條生意的和美鎮黃姓男子，前天因為酒後與同居林姓女友吵架，竟把才十個月大女嬰抱入煮麵的熱鍋裡煮，造成女嬰全身約百分之九十的二到三度燙傷，歷經一天的生死搏鬥，彰基醫院急診部長周志中說，女嬰的死亡率就跟她的燒燙傷面積成正比，情況非常不樂觀。

循環休克 呼吸器維持小生命

「怎麼會有如此狠心的父親！」黃姓男子前天把女嬰放進熱鍋煮，孩子全身皮開肉綻，傷勢極為嚴重，呈循環性休克狀態，醫師已為她插管，目前必須靠呼吸器維持。她前天被送到醫院急救時，就連加入搶救行列的醫護人員，看了女嬰慘狀，都不禁哭出來，為小生命抱屈。

狠心父親煮嬰案引起社會譁然，卓伯源由社會處長陳治明陪同，赴醫院燒燙傷中心加護病房探視女嬰，看到女嬰傷勢是如此嚴重時，卓伯源的心情非常沉重。

搶嬰來不及 媽媽求上天保佑

病床邊陪伴女嬰的媽媽，見到卓伯源時，更是雙手合十哭泣，不斷祈求上天保佑，希望女兒不要有個三長兩短，哭紅雙眼的她，對自己當時沒在第一時間搶下女兒，任由酒後的同居人將女兒抱進滾燙熱鍋中，自責不已。

探視完女嬰，卓伯源對這整起事件，不斷重覆「太悲慘了」、「太令人痛心了！」兩句話，並表示，將請求彰化基督教醫院給予女嬰最好醫療。他呼籲為人父母者千萬要有良好的溝通，尤其遇到對方是酒後、或精神狀態不佳時，更要避免言語及行為上的刺激。

另彰化縣府社會處社會救助科長許芳瑜指出，因黃姓男子與同居女友共同育有兩名女兒，但兩人明顯都無法提供子女的妥善照料工作，所以已經協調寄養家庭，協助安置另名十二歲的女兒。

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4天前被父親放入熱鍋中造成嚴重燙傷的黃姓女嬰，今天上午10點05分宣告不治，母親、哥哥、姊姊淚眼相送，家人幫她穿上美麗的粉紅衣裳，在場醫護人員也忍不住潸然落淚。

女嬰的母親親手幫她穿上粉紅色的衣服，輕聲喚著「姊姊來看妳，妳要乖」，希望女兒可以一路好走，家人陪伴在側，送走降生僅短短10個月的小生命。

而女嬰中午已經從過世的加護病房移往太平間，檢察官相驗死因後表示，父親的殺人罪則已經在處理，相關證人證詞也在釐清中，希望天下的父母都可以珍愛子女，而女嬰父親在偵訊過程中也曾表達悔意。

不過稍早有一對夫妻帶著花束和卡片要來探望女嬰，到了醫院才聽聞女嬰死訊，捧著鮮花的莊太太當場痛哭。

莊姓夫妻表示，幾天前看到新聞都非常痛心，也很關心女嬰，今天上午特地買了鮮花和卡片，寫著「獻給堅強的黃小妹，但願仙佛可以賜福，金剛護體」，希望她可以度過難關，沒想到黃小妹最後還是無法度過難關。

另外，昨天彰化基督教醫院一名護士杜小姐就錄了自己唱的福音歌曲，在黃姓女嬰病榻前播放，希望可以幫她祈福，雖然黃姓女嬰最後還是不治，但杜小姐也特地錄了「讓愛走動」及「天父的孩子」兩首歌，要送她最後一程。

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The first week of my sip was kind of neutral to me.
Nothing much to talk about except that i really love my Sup, NEHAL so much.
Every morning, every moment she is smiling. hahas.
Ok. this makes me not so stress when i'm doing the stuff she gave me.
Most of the time i have been revamping the handouts.
Also, writing it out on my own on related diseases such as Type II diabetes, Cholesterol, Weight management and more.
Its really fun as i get to know more about this information.
Especially weight management. Due to the accumulation of body fats i had after coming back from TW. Argh....

Ward visting was fun.
I finally understand why Mdm kalpana says that there is alot of handsome guys there.
Cause even all the patients are mainly ANG MOs.
is super omg. There is this guy i call him, mr M, he is really funny when he was talking to Nehal.
But i almost fainted when we ask for his daily meal plan...6 diet coke a day...
thats like super 0.o LOL! that explain the reason why he got.........

Other than doing reports and handouts. I also help nehal in translation.
I really gain alot from it.
And online translator cant be trusted totally. Thw word 'plague' is killing me too.
The nurses there are really nice. Enjoy short conversation with all of them.
I guess Angela (Manager's secretary) was the only person who spend almost the full day with me all the while since we are in the same room. LOL!
She's really nice always ask me to go to the pantry and get food.
The jap cookies she brought for me was like SUPER OMG de NICE!

Throughout this 2 weeks i find that i'm really lucky to have a healthy life and body.
When seeing patients trying to hard and pain to strive for illness it does hurts everyone's heart.
I will always rmb what that boy said, "For my mum sake, i will strive till the end and live..."
The smile on his face was crooked due to the early treatment he get.
I pray for you boy and hope you get well soon.

Although there's sad stuff.
I still see lots of kids in Internal Med.
Awww...So cute and lovely.
They will run around and suddenly bump to you, then will run away and run back to yr side, tug your pants and say "i'm sorry".
Cute~ i really love kids~

Tmr is going out with SVK.
And also the dateline for all the templates in FSaf.
I've already completed but seriously im lazy. Just to post it up LOL!



Thanks boy for the lunch today.
And also, i will miss you so much when your sip starts....
Love you. =)

Reached Raffles Hospital early around 8am today.
Just for your info, im only suppose to reach at 830.
Blame on the MRT, it speed i guess. LOL!

The first day was on General Orientation.
Kind of bored and tired after long hours of talk.
I can see the seniors staff falling asleep.

Get to learn more about how to protect myself from emergency cases when i'm in hospital.
Also, what to do and not do.
Hand rub is a few thing i seen.
And the handwashing technique really do makes a difference.
Although is kind of troublesome.

Got into the Internal Medicine Centre.
Knew quite a few senior staffs and JC attachment students there.
They are really very friendly indeed.
Taught me quite a few things on treating patients and handling problems.

The first day is still all right.
Hopefully the subsequent days i can enjoy myself alot and learn more about dietetics field from Raffles Hospital.